The last episodes of Never Have I Ever Season 4 allow us to see off our faves as they embark on fresh journeys. They’re attending dream colleges, chasing lofty ambitions and exploring romantic relationships while we’re left proud and misty-eyed. While it’s hard to say goodbye, here’s a cathartic way to process your emotions: 47 exclusive behind-the-scenes photos that let you view Devi’s (Maitreyi Ramakrishnan) glorious senior year at Sherman Oaks High School from a new perspective that’ll make you feel like you’re on set.

While it’s OK to be sad that it’s over, it’s also nice to happily reflect on the growth of these characters from start to finish. At least that’s how  Ramakrishnan approached her final days on the groundbreaking comedy.

“I felt like I barely had to act in that last altar scene because I felt so overwhelmed with gratitude,” Ramakrishnan tells Tudum. “I was just thinking about how grateful I am for Mindy [Kaling] and Lang [Fisher] for giving me this opportunity and taking a true shot on me. I felt very grateful for them and I felt very grateful for my family. All around, many things to be grateful for, and I think that’s really cool.”

So, as you thumb through these photos taken within the halls of Sherman Oaks High and beyond, allow yourself to feel happy and grateful for four seasons with the gang.